Mon oshombhob kharap niye bari firlam keno jeno..bhalo lagche na kicchu.. maa er birthday chilo aaj.. as usual bhule giyechilam.. Maa ektu raag korei mone koriye dilo..maa ke happy birthday boley onekkhon joriye dhore rakhlam..oituku shomoy chara aaj kono shanti pelam na mon e.. hoyto amar destiny e bhugte thaka.. Dukkho Bilashi Manob.. LOL..
amar khub oshohay lagchhe...
karon...
ki jeno hoyeche amar... kichu ekta kintu dhorte parchina...
shob kichu hotat korei kemon ogochalo lagche...eitto shei dino shob thik thak e to chilo... aj kemon jeno shob kichui onno rokom lagche...
mone hocche maar kole matha rekhe jodi ghumue partam...oRR.. abbur sateh boi melai ghurtam...kingba panthor sathe kothao ghurte jetam...
protita jinis e impossible...
pantho sydney te... boimela ses....
ammu o basai amio basai...
but ammu ektu sick....
kintu ja bollam ta korlei ki amar prb splve hoito???
shanti shanti lagto eita thik... nischinto hoye kisu shomoy katano jaito...
bujhtesi na...
majhe majhe nijer kase jokhon durboddho hoye jai ... ochena hoye jai... tokhon khub oshohay lagte thake...
amar ekhon khub oshohay lagche.
hothat korei abar kichchu ekta hoyechchey. abaro shei purono obak bishonnota peye boshechchey. kichchu kortey ichcha korena....kichchu boltey ichchey korena....chupchap dekhey jai. dekhi manusher anondo...dekhi tader bedona....dekhi tader nanan onubhutir bibhinno bohipprokash. abar kokhno ba dekhi eki onubhutir bhinno bhinno bohipprokash.
amar ki hoyechchey? amar ja hoyechchey takey bodhoy bola jay bodh heen onubhuti. shukhkho ar sthulo onubhuti gulo ek jogey lorey jachchey amar bodh heenotar shathey. kokhona ba onubhutir shirshey uthey abeger taronay likhey feli kono kobita....abar kokhono ba nisprihotar shathey cheye dekhi amar chaarpash. kichchui jeno eshey jayna.
ekhon amar shomoy katey janalar pashey ... bisheshoto raater bela ...meghmukto akasher dikey takiye bhabi...achcha dhaka shohoreo ki ekhon ei chad tai dekha jachchey? keu ki amar motoi janalar pashey boshey ghorer baati gulo nibhiye chaad taake dekhchchey? shey ke? shey kemon?
ekta semi-tondrar bhetor choley jai. ashapasher jogot bhuley jai...akasher dikey cheyeo ar kichchu dekhtey paina....shudhu money hotey thakey ektu porei keu ashbey. dorojay toka diye bolbey "ajker raat ta chomotkar ... cholo dhakar rastay ghurey ashi". tondra thekey dholey pori ghumey, kintu keu ashena....keu dorjay toka deyna. amar ekantoi nijoshsho nirjonota nijer e roye jay....shunnotay.
Came home with an extremely sad mood for the 2nd day in a row.. To hell with everything..maybe that trip to jessore day after tomorrow will do me some good..
amraa boshonto family mile ektaa journey koraa jayna kothao .. ?
like sundarban or kuakata ..
dui ekdin thakaa hobe .. chorom mojaa hobe kintu guys ..
bhebe dakho .